--Thu-- Mar 27 2003 MST , 02:24:47 a.m. -3 MST went to Netherworld, saw people shooting 9-ball, saw divorced Dave, lent him peso for game --Sun-- Mar 2 2003 MST , 04:39:20 a.m. -3 MST Kayti subtly to Twar. Mar 2 2003 MST , 03:31:38 a.m. -3 MST I'm afraid to get better because that would mean I'd be on my own, and being on my own before was just so awful. --Wed-- Feb 26 2003 MST , 10:04:21 p.m. -3 MST got period last Saturday --Wed-- Jan 29 2003 MST , 03:49:01 p.m. -3 MST I feel guilty toward my mom. Why do I always feel so guilty about everything? There's this tiny tightrope between me feeling guilty about people and me resenting them. Jan 29 2003 MST , 01:57:27 p.m. -3 MST Skipped pm dose to be awake dayside. --Tue-- Jan 28 2003 MST , 10:31:43 a.m. -3 MST sleep now? Jan 21 2003 MST , 07:18:24 p.m. -3 MST Must add the beginning of #50004:watch to #50004:bw and :qw. Jan 13 2003, 01:32:08 a.m. - Dream about going back to visit school under advisee groups, me and Monty under Hogarth, rooms first in a tower, mine 'way under Monty's, and Hogarth's 'way below that, and flirting and inside-joke dropping from literature in common, then realization of old dance club still being there, waiting to be reactivated by us, and now we're in a room by the village, a big double be with its own bath that Monty and I appropriate, and a couple of singles with showers outside the room. There's a couple sitting on one of the singles. We pry a bit and determine that they don't belong in the room, but can't make them go a way, so we determine to have sex, which is what we wanted the room for, anyway, and Monty goes out to one of the showers, but there's a girl in the tub, half the other couple, so when Monty gets back, I complain to him, and she moves, but Monty says I may as well wait since we were going to have sex and I'd just have to get clean again, anyway. I disagree, since I'd rather be clean for sex and dirty for dancing than the revers, and I - could- get clean twice, and besides, what had he done? WOKE UP. --Sat-- Jan 11 2003, 02:51:22 a.m. - I should rig my laptop to my bed Jan 11 2003, 01:34:04 a.m. - society that has clinics for people who just got hit by something really hard in their lives, where they can take narcotics for a while, but supervised, and eased back off them after a little while. --Fri-- Jan 10 2003, 04:21:54 p.m. - lived in wvail's garts, whick was a jungle-gym of platforms, dad lived near, kid worked at liquor store, lived under, had dog, made last dog into slider, agreed was sad, at shop next to where he lived. --Thu-- Jan 9 2003, 04:38:24 p.m. - ktime ktime <--> ctime, ktime <--> seconds since 1970 --Wed-- Jan 8 2003, 06:55:22 p.m. - angry angry angry angry angry. really goddamned angry. Jan 8 2003, 06:54:54 p.m. - angry that he threw out things that I need without asking, opened the windows and doors without my permission and then leaving them open when he leaves. angry that he says my cat box stinks when it's my diarrhea from earlier that stinks and why should I have to tell him that anyway? Jan 8 2003, 06:53:07 p.m. - angry because he came today while I was passed out on tranquilizers, spends the whole afternoon "making conversation in order to make me wake up but I'm so conked out it doesn't work and he moves and does things that harm my stuff without asking, asks to do stuff which I say don't do it, then announces he's doing in anyway, over my repeatedly still telling me not to. Jan 8 2003, 06:50:23 p.m. - angry because she asks questions which assume things about me and my motivations and the assumptions are contrary to fact. --Thu-- Jan 2 2003 MST , 03:04:59 p.m. - 3 MST dreamed no doctors --Fri-- Dec 20 2002, 19:26:54 - Wow, people are annoying. Being out of the house is annoying. Dec 20 2002, 14:20:48 - new verb for desc -- one time in four, random, desc will pull from story, file of .txt beginnings, only on Kayti, with pointer to rest of story for the curious. Property will hold day, and if date isn't day, will re-grab list of beginnings, random choose one, replace prop with new time stamp day (DD) and new story. Dec 20 2002, 14:17:04 - Jess told me all those political ads where the speaker against whatever issue turns out to be dead, a victim of the thing e's speaking against, are all done by the same group, "Drop Dead Advertising, Inc.," and that even tho' it's all DDAI, the ads are ordered by a whole bunch of different groups. That seemed kind of funny to me, since when I watch the ads, I feel like there's no way [note to self: look into making first paragraphs of good stories into my desc with pointers to website with the rest of the story] the opposite viewpoint would have used DDAI, or that there's no way DDAI would have accepted an order from the opposing group. I wonder if that's even legal, for the ad company to refuse orders for ads based on politics. I'll ask Jess next time I see him. [...] It'll turn out that DDAI uses the profits for political goals, and that's why the other side would never use them. Only, then it does. Dec 20 2002, 14:01:58 - (from last night) Flesh out characters, company that makes/runs ads. Is there more than one group having spots done? (yes) Is the group doing the ads political? (yes) Drop Dead Advertising, Inc. Visine *blink* re:prolife ads Ads are like poetry -- every word counts triple and more. Dec 20 2002, 05:50:44 - Woo. Battered women ads, also, late-sixties/early- seventies looking woman in bell-bottoms reminding us what happened to her will happen again if Roe.v.Wade is overturned. Dec 20 2002, 05:46:43 - Someone argues the case that there should be alcohol ads, too, then goes through the process of making the series of alcohol ads, plus ... do they do or did they do drunk driving ads? maybe revive those, too. Try to work out copyright laws -- am I okay as long as I don't copy the content of the ads from the real ones? Dec 20 2002, 05:37:23 - drop dead ads are ads a series of ads against something where the speaker is talking about why the thing's bad and at the endshows a harp or puts on a halo or something to imply the speaker was a victim of the thing the ad's against. --Thu-- Dec 19 2002, 23:23:47 - Scared, but going to bed anyway. Want to make tomorrow come. --Wed-- Dec 18 2002, 23:06:21 - I probably could go to sleep now, but I want to read because I'm not convinced that I'll be able to do it tomorrow. --